8.25.25 mean brain

my brain has been extra mean lately.

i had a dream today.

i saw you from a far, from behind.

you were wearing baby blue- like the sky that i look up to every morning.

your hair was shining yellow like the moonlight.

dangling a white skirt like the clouds.

ah. heaven.

i ran to you and swept you off your feet, and held you in my arms- we were laughing and smiling like in the beginning.

and then i woke up- what a mean brain right?

jeez.

i don't know why but

i missed your mom today.

she's so sweet and kind- and if i miss her, i can't even imagine how much you miss her. and that makes me so sad. i wish i could be there and hug you but i lost all privileges to be there for you, i know.

i cry for all the things you been through.

i cry harder for all the things i put you through.

but, i smile for you now. you say you're happy, you found your one.

ah we were so close. the universe is so interesting. what if we met a few months later, would i have been your one?

why does my brain keep asking these questions. it's so mean.

but im happy you're happy.