7.21.25 never knew

Sometimes I feel like I am losing my mind.

I never felt like this before.

All throughout my life, I always knew what to do. I always accept who people are and what people did.

except you.

I think I loved you with parts of me that I didn't know existed. Love that i never thought was possible.

I know you hate me. You don't have an ounce of love for me anymore. As a matter of fact, that app i am working on, i want to name Calvin.

The friend that always spoke to you. The support i always wanted to be for you.

But im afraid that you will hate me more. Afraid that he will hate me more.

Fuck. A few fucking months.

How can we be so close yet so far.

A few months away to live entire lives different.

I hope you are eating well ❤️