7.10.25 books

I was reading Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents and wow.

I thought I turned out okay - I have an education, a job, friends, and all that. But those are physical needs.

The book says "Emotionally damaged children wish to grow up quickly, to become what they lacked. They look forward to adulthood." I feel this- for us. We love bombed each other so hard because we felt like we were each other's missing part. I know I did.

I am sorry for stomping on your self esteem for all the constant rejections I have done.

I realized if I never learn and grow from being emotionally damaged, I fear I may one day become an emotionally distant parent too.

You are wrong to want to belong to someone. You are not asking for too much. I just didn't know how to accept your love, because I never felt loved before. I didn't know how to love you for being yourself.

I was chatting with a therapist today and want to share. for you, or for me, i don't know. but i know i never want to forget you and what you taught me.

For reference, I am "Tommy's Ex". We talk alot about how we are each other's boyfriend. The picture of a girl is an AI generated picture. I am was asking a lot of questions in actuary discords for help to take exams and find jobs and switching to a girl picture alot of replies fast. hah.