7.09.25 notes

today was a hard day. i feel like my heart is stabbed by a million needles, but it hurts even more when i know i made her feel this way too. today i saw the love of my life walk away. today i heard the love of my life say she is going to grow old with someone else.

so here i am, a crazy guy, talking to a wall.

not in hopes it will reach her ears, but just to document my love. my growth. i no longer deserve her love, maybe i never did.

our love was too real and i will keep it alive and meaningful here.

i see all of you, know all of you. i know it may not feel like it, but i accept all of you and am learning to love all of you too. the good, the bad, and the hard. i know our relationship is not easy. and if we have a future, it won't be easy too, but i am here to go through the hard parts together.