8.19.25 i'm doing it

I'm doing it.

The right way.

I know i am.

The healthy way.

Showing up for myself.

Showing up for others.

Building healthy habits.

Learning how to care.

Going to therapy.

Listening to myself.

No more distractions.

Focused.

All of It.

Everyday. I try to be the best person I can- i really do.

I play badminton everyday- its the only that i enjoy, and there's this 54 year old lady that i've been bonding with. Man, she's so sweet, it makes me wonder.

my mom is around her age.

the way she talks about her son and her husband, i just know, its a family full of love.

and so i've been prying every day- a question everyday.

whats the secret to a happy marriage.

whats the hardest thing to being a mom.

whats an advice you would give your som about love.

lol- she sits next to me, i swear im not the one bothering her!!

anyway, i notice she puts her hands on her back- shes getting old-

I try my best to pick up all her birdies and never let her bend over.

i know i been doing a lot. both for family friends and strangers. my therapist thinks its unreasonably too much.

i don't know.

i'm just trying my best, everyday.

Exercise.

Therapy.

Work.

Family.

Discipline.

Kindness.

I was told to do all these things, work hard, be better, and things will get better- but the more i discover this relationship with myself, the more i learn about love, the more i learn to love myself, the more i realize how happy we can be if i learned these things earlier

which is fucked up, i thought i am supposed to feel better

its okay.

i'm okay.

i know you're happy.

i mean, i'm talking to myself here lol.

everyone tells me to get over you, but if me missing you makes me a better person than why? why should i?

because you do.

you do make me a better person, even when you're not here anymore.

so- yeah. i do miss you 🫶🏻