7.24.25 soulmates

Alex asked me if i believe soulmates are real.

I answered,

"well, there's two answers, the logical one and the emotional one.

logically, of course not. there's 7 billion people in this world. you can make connections with others. i know, i'll be happy with other people too. i know there's healthy people out there. i know all of that. so, logically no. now ask me emotionally."

Alex said, "I don't want to."

I replied,

"lol, I'm going to answer anyway. emotionally, i say yes i believe in soulmates. yeah there's healthier people out their for both of us- yeah there's people out there for both of us that will make us happy. but something that draws me to her, and i'd like to believe the same for her, is our pain. nobody truly understands the pain of feeling so lonely in this world, since a little kid. sure, there are many, but- i don't feel like there is. not until i met her.

with her, it's the first time i met someone who has always been as lonely as me. and it's like, hey! you're not alone! we're matching shoes! we walked the same path! sure, we both can find someone else to walk forward together, but finding someone who have walked the same path as us in the past. i don't know.

it took me too long to realize but while i didn't have much power in the steps that i took when i felt so alone, i do have the power to change the steps i take moving forward. i will heal and i will love-myself and others, at my very best, to my very core. i will get there, i just wish i walk that path forward with her.

so yeah, soul mates are real."