7.22.25 moms

I was talking with joseph and explaining to him how i find it easy to be vulnerable, to be nice, to be open to him, and others.

I don't find it hard.

But i find it so hard to do with my partner.

I am realizing it is because i am afraid,

Afraid to give my partner that power

And with that power, if she leaves me

I'll be wrecked, just like how my mom leaves me.

So I subconsciously protect myself.

I'm glad i am recognizing these triggers and talking myself out of it.

But why do i feel wrecked right now anyway ☠️.

Am i crazy to start believing my purpose is my partner, and nothing else matters.

I wish i was man enough back then to walk this journey with you.