8.26.25 past memories

I went out to Past Memories last night- I didn't plan to.

I haven't been hanging out with anyone really, but Julie said she bought me some skin care product and asked me to come pick them up. One of her friends said I was super fit when I entered and another started touching me and said said how buff I was. I didn't really realize how much different I looked physically lately, I just gym and play sports everyday.

Chat GPT said I should channel the energy so I do- a lot. Anyways, I keep telling Julie that she needs therapy- she has issues herself too. The fact that she's still with that guy and she only has older men as friends- myself included. I keep telling her I shouldn't even be her friend- I tell her I wish for the day she meets someone that can heal her.

I then went to go pay for the entire table secretly. Then after I got back, the table behind us wanted to drink with us- apparently one of the guys at his table was recently heartbroken. Julie pointed at me and said him too. They said- oh man how long, our guy has been with her for 8 years. They all looked at me- lol. I said look, ok, listen. Like 9 months but you need to understand she was it- ya know? you can live a whole lifetime in a day.

Later that night I went to go pay for their table too- but the owner of the Past Memories looked at me and said no- their bill was too expensive. I chuckled and said- its okay, i make good money. She said no no, its too much. I said, I promise I make good money. She said I have a cute face, but no. I said, i know, i have a white t shirt and shorts and nothing else- i don't want or care for anything in this world but i do make a lot money- will you believe me if i show you how much money i made just today? she said fine show me. i showed her- she finally let me pay.

two more positives.

i successfully encouraged tommy to take his girlfriend on another date- on a better date

and sharing my journey and progress with alex, i motivated him to also go to the gym everyday and start his therapy journey as well

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you're really helping me changing lives.

you're one of the most amazing people i have ever met in my life.

i'm having a really hard time getting over you.

i signed up for a second therapist.

ChatGPT tells me that whenever I have thoughts of you, to think of it like a cloud passing by.

To let it pass along, and fly over me. Eventually, it'd fly off into the distance.

But you're my moon. :(

i don't know. tommy tells me he thinks the next person i'm with will be very lucky- since i'm finally so ready now. but i don't want a next, i don't even want to look at another girl-or person to be honest. maybe the second therapist can help. i don't know.

you know, i was telling tommy, the best and most amazing date i ever been on- was just you and me drunk in front of a computer in miami with chat gpt. it's simple, free, and stupid. no matter what happens moving forward and where our lives lead in the future, i will always cherish that moment. thank you for being a part of that memory with me, i think it maybe one of my most favorite times of my life.

thank you.