7.26.25 control

today is one of those days where the words from the workbooks, the advice from the therapists and friends- just clicked.

i honestly feel a lot better as a person, but working on building it into habits and being consistent.

I'm starting to get a lot of DM's asking for help and i don't know truly what to say because it costed losing the love of my live to gain this motivation to find this awareness 😭😭😭😭.

I have yet to reply to them yet- i sure as hell am not one to guide.

one of the things that i can't accept is not loving you anymore. one of the things that i don't know if i can do is moving on. i'm walking down this journey of healing my past and i so wish i walk down it with you. i so wish to heal with you and love you the way you so needed. it took me too long to realize what you needed. and these things that i can't accept are the emotions that i can't control.

but i accept. i accept that you don't love me back. i accept that you hate me. and you think the worst of me. and you don't even care or look back anymore. and that you're happy in some else's arms.

even in all that, i still love you. even in your worst moments, i still love you. even when you're not with me, i still love you. that's something i can control.