8.20.25 clockwork

4:30am wake up

4:45am skincare

5:00am gym

6:00am on desk at work

everyday. a lot of people ask me why i wake up so early and do so much- i don't have to. i tell them because i want to be disciplined which is only partly true.

it's because you wake up around 6am. I want to wake up before you, i'd want to make you matcha, make you breakfast, pack your lunch, write you cute notes, and drive you to work.

I know. I'm delusional. lol.

I know that reality is gone- i know. A distant dream.

But i wake up everyday anyway.

Because one day, i'll have kids. And i'll want to make breakfast for my kids, prep them for school, and breakfast in bed for my wife. It's a future i want, so it's a habit i want to build now.

i look back, and that old me. Man, he was so distant and cold. I was always a hopeless romantic but never was willing to put in the effort. It's easy to dream right? i understand why you found someone else and never looked back.

i understand.

i hope you're happy, you deserve the world. 🫶🏻

i know you don't hear these words anymore but i'll say them anyway,

I'm proud of you.

I really am.

Look at you, at the woman you've become, all the things you been through. Life's been hard, I'm proud of you.

And i'll keep saying it, to this empty wall, to my self, to the world. 🙂

stay safe dearest 🫶🏻